Don't Drink Bees

Lately I've been thinking and gradually been sinking
Down into the depths of my despair
I wonder if I'd been different, shown a thanks that proved sufficient
You, perhaps, would still be here

I begin to madly blame myself, and then I sadly pain myself
With so many ifs and maybes
I wonder if I'd only cared, I wouldn't be so lonely scared
I wish someone could save me

From the echoes in my head, the repeating noise I dread
I hear the nos and all the blows I so unfairly dealt
I wish I could change how we stood and change the way you felt
But the past cannot be altered now and I can only stand and vow
That I'll be fairer from now on, but I can't change the echoes sound

I hear words repeated cold in my voice as if to scold
That I should have been more of a friend
Why stupidly did I forget what you did for me, I'm in your debt
I stand and wish to see the end

I cannot cry, I am so sad, thinking of all that we had
Now, I'm alone, I'm left with nill
There's such an emptiness in me, but no one understands you see
And away I shrink with only guilt

And the echoes in my head, the repeating noise I dread
I hear the nos and all the blows I so unfairly dealt
I wish I could change how we stood and change the way you felt
But the past cannot be altered now, and I stand with sweat upon my brow
Heavy heart and empty head, except for echoes from the dead

"Please don't cry," a new voice calls. "You can't change this life anymore
Redirect your efforts toward your own
Don't ever forget the good, always act just as you should
You can be fairer from now on."

The echoes in my head, the repeating voice now said
"Forget the nos and all the blows
You so unfairly dealt
I guess I should tell you the good
News: he knew how you felt."

(song)